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blahh..ahh..blah [21 Nov 2004|08:39am] [ mood | tired and annoyed ] [ music | None.. cuz my computer is be..GAy. ] umm this weekend was soo gay. Linzy and Matt broke up..which i think is soo stupid.. he thinks LIndsay was a bad girlfriend...uhh ithink not! and now he doesnt even talk to me ne more. Oh i do care.. but then again thats his loss? Well on thursday me and Linzy Baby and Britt H. and tyler s. and Justin M. all went to the streets of woodfield and went into gameworks and just fucked around. it was hilarious.. until when justin started to cry.. and britt wouldnt talk to him.. it was soo sad.. and also when that stupid mexican security guy..told me n justin that we needed to leave or else hed call the police. so we left.. and i really didnt want to leave because it was pouring outside and i wanted to be in the rain. you could say i wanted the rain to wash away my sorrows? if thats what you wanna call it?.. ne hoo.. yeah Justins brother was a maniac!<-- literally.. he drove at like 80 miles on the road when it was raining outside..  i swear i was going to die at 14 that night.  hah.. ne hoo.. yeah on the ride home.. justins brother had to stop off at walgreens to meet his friend.. and he was eating a burger while waiting.. ( his second one i might add ). and i was soo fucking hungry.. i was about to reach and grab it.. but then his friend showed up..and asked if any0ne wanted to go into his car.. and we all said no.. and Justins brother was laughing soo hard! hah. ne ways.. yeah then friday night.. me n shante went to justin bock`s ( no relation to patty or danny bock. ) after she ate over at my house.. it was fun? joei was being really nice to me.. when he usually hates me. yeah.. and he n shante are in a fight now? ahh i dont know.. but when we were at my house.. me n shante were on the phone with nick.. and we were running around.. and i slammed the door on shante. and she ran into it.. and like flew 10 feet! it was HILarious! ha.. then i ran outside cuz she had a pitch fork.. or something like that.. and I ran into a fence.. and Justin now thinks i cut? because i have a huge scar.. and it bleeds once so often. well yeah.. then yesterday..was a disaster! A total train wreck.  first it was fine.. because me n lindsay and shante were goig to mikes house cuz we assumed mikes mom was going to take us because he said she was going to.. but then mike forgot that shante was going so my daddy had to drive them..he wasnt too mad about that.. so then we went to go pick up dave swanson..and went to the streets and went to go see saw...but we realize saw was sold out.. so we waiting outside and hung around..until National Treasure was playing! we wanted to make fun of the movie.. so yeah. while we were waiting..we went to starbucks and bought crap. it was hilarious! then we played with this tree out in front. then we went to go see the movie. i really enjoyed it.. it was funn. during the movie.. my dad kept fucking calling me.. so i went  outside.. and when ig to off the phone.. linzy baby came down and we went to the bathroom. while walking to the bathroom we ran into Cristina DeNicolo and becky Mayhle.? ( sorry becky however you spell your last name )..a nd so we walked with them to the bathroom. i was glad i really got to have a convo. with Cristina because i havnt gotten to talk to her in a looooooooong time! so yeah.. she said she was there with prindle and all these guys n glas thats i know.. i thought that was pretty cool. Its kinda sad she n Jimmy broke up tho. they were a good couple. ne hoo.. yeah then we watched the end of the movie.. and walked outside.. and of  course shante did the stupid survey.. so we lost the rest of the gang.. ha.. so then after she finished we ran into prinlde and she said " i know you." and turns to me and goes " thats prindle" and i was laughing my ass off. HA.. prindle looked like she was crazy.. even tho he knows her.  ne ways.. we went outside and we really didnt want to go home..so we went back to Starbucks!.. and i played with the tree because i was curious.. and then a cop told me to leave the streets. so i did.. and she followed me until i got to the theatre and she made me call my padre..which was ok.. since i didnt tell him ( aha ).. and then i started to mouth of and the cop got really pissed.. and then my sister started to mouth off.. then she yelled at my sister and not me. I was screaming things like " i thought this was a free country.. if i knew i couldnt touch a tree.. thenwhat has america come to" or something like that..and then another cop tells me that the threatre isnt free.. and i was like what the fuck?!?.. then what is?!? yeah.. he got pissed at me...so then my dad was pissed because he saw me n linzy baby by a cop and he was all worried.. ( thank god the cop didnt talk to my dad.. whoo. )..and he was mad he had to drive us home.. and then shnate came to the johnsons with us..a nd her mom didnt like it and threatened shante that she would never see me again.. so mr. j drove us to her house..because my dad is too mean to do it. yeah so when we got back. we ate.. and my mom was talking bad about shante.. ( i think its cuz she was drunk ).. so i got pissed.. and i yelled at her.. and then i went up to amandas room.. then i fell asleep on her floor for a while.. ( more like two hours )..then when i woke up.. i realized i had a puffy eye! its like 10 times bigger! i think i have a staff infection like shante had.. and im scared cuz if i do.. then i dont want to goto the hospital! i hate them. so yeah.. my eye is still bigger...and i think im going to go take care if it now. adios.. mucho amor!   </3 Meagan Eileen ♥ Wish I was invisible Make me feel

AHHH? [11 Nov 2004|06:04pm] [ mood | restless and hurt ] [ music | Kanye West - The New Work out Plan. (sad isnt it ) ] Well today i went totally mental. My mom got drunk again.. and i got really pissed.. so i started hitting things.. throwing things.. and breaking things. I dont know why.. i just went crAZY.  I scared my sister off.. she just ran out of the house and i dont know where she went..she wont answer her phone or anything. This moving thing has really been bugging me i guess? im not good with emotional things? well im going to go.. trying to cool off? i think im going to lay down.. i have a huge headache.. and my hand is cutt open.   Meagan Eileen </3 Wish I was invisible Make me feel

ahhh... [09 Nov 2004|05:33pm] [ mood | very very moody.. ] [ music | the breakup song - american hi-fi ] yeah.. matt is over.. again.. and he just sprayed my fucking boobs. Ne hoo.. shante told me joe n aryn are over?? ahhh i dont care tho..joe is fucking pissing me off..i found out he only wanted to go out with me to " get some ". yeah.. well i want to tell everyone im not prude thats all you need to know... shante knows.  n skulls too. aha. ne hoo.. i found out im moving.. which really sucks.. in two months.. to fucking arizona.. hah fuck you dad im not moving.. im living with shante then. yeah.. well.. ne ways.. im going.. in a pissy mood.. because me n nicole mundie got in a fight.. nicole i even cryied ok?ive just been in a pissy mood.. and i never should have taken is out on you... ahh.. my life is crumbling beneath me </3 Meagan Eileen ♥ Wish I was invisible Make me feel

ahhh.. fuck it.. [06 Nov 2004|11:10pm] [ mood | ANNOYED..BITCHY..UPSET ] [ music | YOU KNOW WHAT THEY DO TO GUYS LIKE US - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE ] yeah well i know i havnt written in a while? ive been in a fucking pissy mood. well shit hAPPENS.. and life goes on.. ne whoo. TPH was fun? ok not really.. first i couldnt wear what i wore there.. then my daddy had to go get me a new shirt.. and it was a gay shirt tooo..but thank god my lovely friend niko waited with me for a while.. then mike n dave did too. Man i loove all those guys. And i wAs having a pretty good time.. until i saw joe. jenny said he kept staring at me.. but i knew he wasnt. if he was staring at me.. then he was staring at me meanly... cuz he hates me. I dont think.. i like him ne more? but cant be too sure at this moment. ne ways.. i was dancing with this lil cute kid.. he was adorable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :). yeah n shantes (x) boyfriend showed up.. just to fucking break up with her! hes such an ass.. haha he forgot i know where he lives.. and i have him cell number..me n shante should have mckee go kick his ass. he made a HUGe mistake. Well than i went to amandas party.. it was coolio? i went to bed at like 10 cuz i jsut came from TPH n i was sleepy. Chris saw me n my sister fighting in front of his house. well tonight my dad was talking about how we are going to move in like a month. he can go bite my ass cuz im not fucking moving. id rATHER  live on the streets. I would miss all my friends. :(.. well im still in a pissy mood. so you all can bite my BIG dick. :-X.   </3 MEAGAN EILEEN   {{ sO LONG AND gOOd nIgHT }} Wish I was invisible Make me feel

FUck YoU [02 Nov 2004|09:08am] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Calm Before the Storm-FOB ] **:·.         ·:*I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself                       But you know that I could crush you with my voice Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me                       Hide the details I don't want to know a thing I hate the way you say my name like it's something secret                         My pen is the barrel of the gun. Remind me which side you should be on. I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel. Yeah Im listening to music. Im really trying to waste time until i can call Nicole At 10. Im soo tired but i cant go to sleep. Things are weird lately.. with me i mean. Im in a bad mood alot.. i was sick after gym when i never get sick..and im soo pissy n depressed. I dont know whats happening with me. my world is just upside down lately. ANd i swear to god.. if Bush wins i will kill myself. I dont want another 4 years of more wars. Stupid Texans.. they should never be president. They just fuck everything up. Well ne ways.. trying to waste time..   Meagan Eileen ♥ Wish I was invisible Make me feel

So left out... [01 Nov 2004|06:46pm] [ mood | sick, pissed, depressed? ] [ music | Saturday-F.O.B. ] yeah well.. my weekend was good? if you call good.. seeing a movie you saw two times already.. n having all your friends ditch you on your bday to goto a stupid dance ( and they say they`ll make it up .. but never will )..and also not going trick or treating cuz her friend rather be with her bf? i dont know.. im just in a fucking pissy mood? ahh i dont know why? i must be PMSing or something? ahh ne ways.. there is really nothing to say.. so im going to go listen to my new FALL OUT BOY CD!   *  you can thank your lucky starts because everything i wish for will never come true * Wish I was invisible Make me feel

Blah man!? [28 Oct 2004|07:21pm] [ mood | N HYPER.. ] [ music | SHANTE VOICE ON THE PHONE.. ] Ahh today is Britt Downey`s BirthdayYY! YAYZ!!!!! she n Justin McDonald are both one day older than me.. :(..ahh im soo young..oh well.. i get do die later? or i cAN ALWAYS GET HIT BY A BUS..well ne ways.. i found out today Joe n Aryn FeldBurg are going out..:(.. yeah i am still in love with him..yess n i found out aryn stuffs! haha n wears paded bras... n is prude!! HAHA i hope joe has fun.. he deserves it.. n i mean it!.. WELL NE WAYS.. ME N TONI ARE NOW OFFICIALLY TWINS MAN!N WE LOOVE eachother the same too! Man i feel like im gettn gipped here bcuz Matt is going to miss my birthday :( cuz hes going camping with tyler :(.. ahh ill live? hes missn school too. soo sad.. well tomarrow is my b-day? yess? im not too excited.. i dont know why? confusing.. well ne ways..yeah.. we are going to the movies tomarrow.. call me if ya wanan come.. <><><><><>847-769-9686<><><><><> yes thats my cell number...well im going to go.. listen to some sad music? tell ya about my day tomarrow? I gave you my heart to charish.. and what do you do with it?.. you throw it on the floor n stomp on it. What love? I still am in love with joe LARSEN.. ^ SAD ISNT IT? mEAGAN eILEEn ^ OR WHATS LEFT OF ME... ♥ Wish I was invisible Make me feel

Danny`s birthday? [25 Oct 2004|06:53pm] [ mood | im feeling ahh.is that a mood? ] [ music | Bedroom Talk- Starting line ]    Ahhh. nothing much to say here.. xcept that its DANNY MCKENZIE`S BIRTHDAY! Ahhh i cant believe he is older than meeee... ahh its also BECKY`S birthdaYY! i hope ya had a funn birthday guys!!.. well ne ways.. i am right now completing my mask that was due today.. aha. whoops?.. well ne ways.. i am soo totally gunna celebrate Stynah`s birthday ON friday.. ( which is mine ).. haha im celebrating hers.. n shes celebrating mine..Aww how sweet.:) hehe well ne ways.. im listening to music.. n text messageing people.. hehe how funnn! ahh well im going to go..still in a crappy mood?               MEAGAN EILEEN Wish I was invisible Make me feel

scared out of my freaking mind!......... [24 Oct 2004|09:24pm] [ mood | and depressed.. and sore ] [ music | the sound of my heart beating really fast! ] Ok well i jsut got back from AMC with Toni and Matt n Linzy BAby.. haha it was ggrrreat! Me n her went through this door.. n i thought it was the fire alarm.. so she jsut like pushed me through. and it turns out the other THE GRUDGE times were showing..  so we went to one of them.. n started watching the movie until ours started... and went were got in.. it was like all Chinese.. so we went back into our theatre.. n we are like what language is next Russian/German.. haha it was grreat!  Ok then we were soo fucking scared.. i was like biteing off my own skin.. n she was rocking back in forth.. haah .. then after the movie. we were waiting for her mom.. and Matt took off the top to the light.. so me n Toni went around n tried taking off all the light tops.. she got 3 and i got 3. But on this one.. she like ripped out the whole freaking light.. haha it was soo funnY! shes super woman ;). Yeah me n her made a packed that we wouldnt go to bed since we were soo scared..  im fucking freaked out man! N im tired... :(.. ahh.. hey hey got a new celly. HAH its sooo kewl man! I loove it.. its my new best friend. Well im going to go watch the game.. hehe.. GO CARDINALS!                                                           MEAGAN EILEEN ♥ Wish I was invisible Make me feel

Blah.. Blah? [24 Oct 2004|02:37pm] [ mood | and depressed.. odd isnt it? ] [ music | Grand Theft Autumn-Fall Out Boy ] "Where is your boy tonight? ... I hope he is a gentleman .. maybe he wont find out what I know .. you were the last good thing about this part of town."   Yes im listening to Fall out boy again..you can say im obsessed.. but.. umm im not? well im gettn my cell phone in a half an hour! Whoo!! When i get it im going to add all my lovelies.. then start calln them. HA! Well after i get my cell.. im going to the movies with the lovely Toni Casso*! Also with Matt Hopkinson* n my sister Linzy BABY*. Sam Stephens couldnt go.. :(.. its ok tho.. i really dont know her that well. hehe.. well ne ways.. im gettn disrupted from my muusic. SO ill ttyl lyl.. byeee                        Meagan Eileen Wish I was invisible Make me feel

Ahhh... [23 Oct 2004|09:08pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Free Fall Without a Parachute-Senses Fail ] Well to start off the day.. I woke up and listened to Fall Out Boy.. because for some reason they make me feel aLOt better..ahh for some odd reason I`ve been depressed for the past couple of days.. and I dont know why..ne hoo.. gettn off topic..then I took A shower..then straightened my hair..for Jess`s party. Of course every where I go I have to meet someone new.. so I made two new "friends". I met the D.J. and she was soo cool. She listened to the same music I do.. she hates That pointless preppy ass music she had to play.. so she even let me and Linzy Baby* and Natalie* and Jess* listen to our rock music..and she also has yellow converse which is totally kick ass! I also met Danny ( the roller rink dude ) and he was totally kick ass too! Haha me n Linzy Baby* pulled on Roo.. the mascots.. tail!.. of course I pulled it first.. being the leader I am.. ( ahah right.. )..I also got to meet this ghetto ass girl.. who of course I got on her bad side with.. but I won of course. She started a fight with me jsut because I told her a couple is two people and not 4.. soo yeah.. she called me n Jessica gay.. so I told her off. Yeah then I met these homosexual kids names Brettt n Denis.. they totally loved eachother.. you could tell..so yeah.. HAha it was hilarious. So that umm leads me to now.. listening to depressing music feeling sorry for myself.. :-/. Ahh i dont know why im soo depressed.. I think Its because Im still soo madly in love with Joseph Larsen still.. is that soo terrible? I dont know if thats it tho.. ahh I just dont know ne more.. my world is crumbling beneath me. Wow.. 6 more days until my birthday.. woah how exciting? Im going to be 14.. woah.. thats seems soo grand? Uhh not really.. I just cant wait until I`m 16. Then I can drive. I get my new cell-phone tomarrow.. finally! It only took like 8 months. Well im going to go listen to some more depressing music.. feeling even sorrier for myself. Then Im going to fall asleep to The Nightmare Before Christmas. ( I love that movie! )                                                   Meagan Eileen ♥ Wish I was invisible Make me feel

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